Monday, April 28, 2008

I'm still okay ... maybe

I know this is a photography and scrapbook blog - a place where Jeff and I share our layouts and photos. But lately it has become a place for me to vent out too. I know I have friends who visit this blog to see how I do. And this is my way to let them know ... I am still alive, maybe not okay but surviving.

I'm going through one of the most difficult phases in my life. I feel like I wanted to die for several days, wake up again and everything will just return to how things used to be. I've been here several times before and it's not that simple to go through this again .. simply not something I anticipated!

I'm really in pain and I can only blame myself for everything. Now I realized that not all of my decisions are sound after all. I made a mistake and if only I could turn back time, I will.

I'm sorry I cannot divulge some info. I wish I could but there are some sensitive issues concerning some people that I cannot just say what's taking place. All I ask of you is to pray for me and my family. I have not been myself lately and I know that my family needs me ... the usual me, not the absent minded wife and mom ... not the sulking one. I want my self back. When? I have no idea ...

Thanks for reading this. I really appreciate it.

-Pia

15 comments:

Cynthia said...

I am praying for you...

Maybelle said...

Hey, Pia! Maybe we should pick up from our talk last April 5. I'll always be here if you want to talk to someone. Hang in there, girl!!!

Alby said...

Hi Pia! I'm praying for you. Whatever it is, just hand over your burden to the Lord and He will carry them for you. Cheers!

diane said...

Hugs to you my dear friend! I'll include you, ethan and Jeff to my prayers. If only I can give you a real hug. Love you Friend! Don't worry everything will be ok soon. Mwuah!

jonaks said...

just always pray when you needed strength. we are all here. Be strong.

alpha said...

hi pia. i hope everything gets better soon.

Wati Basri said...

pia...take care & hugz

Mickee said...

Hi Pia, lift all your woes to the Lord and He will make everything alright - in His time. Will pray for you.

Benga said...

Hi Pia, my prayers are with you and your family. May God give you strength and enlightenment.

Take care.

Cookie Aguilar said...

hi pia!just continue to pray. youre a strong person and remember that we are not given problems if we will not be able to handle them diba. Ika nga, pagsubok lang yan. what ever it is... i know kaya mo yan. Andito lang kami whenever you need us...cheer up!!!

Lee i. said...

Pia, whatever it is that you are going through, know too that this will pass. I know that you will emerge through this victorious, but as you go through the pain (kaakibat na yata talaga ng buhay yan), know we are here to support and pray for you. Take care.

pigmentations said...

pia-tot, sa pagbuhat natin ng kani-kaniyang krus, kasama mo kami sa pagdarasal na makarating ka from point A to point B. ergo, we hope this too, like the others before it, shall pass.

just wanted you to smile, ateng :)

Mia Castrillo said...

this too shall pass. and whatever it may be, what is important is that you are true to yourself and to the people you love and who love you too. hugs to you, friend! be assured that you have friends who love you and will support you. hang in there!

Sandra Yu said...

hi pia,

whatever it is, we'll pray for you & your family ...u know what, i'm thankful to you coz, ur the very first person to inform me that there is a scrapbooking group (diba sa N@W??) I've been through a lot of difficulties too..iba-iba. Pero now I have an outlet, this hobby has helped me alot...hang on girl...kaya mo yan=)

RoMeLy said...

hi, can't help but leave you a message about this. hope everything is fine now. I can say I am on the same boat. Got some things in my life right now that I wish do not exist.
i'll say a prayer for you. :)