Saturday, January 23, 2010

Still Alive ...

I am back after a month of hiatus. I'd still say a Happy New Year to all! I've wanted to write something in my blog ever since December but they're not at all scrapbook related so I thought I'd rather not to. Besides, December was such a busy month. I didn't feel Christmas come ... it was just so fast. One day it was our 6th wedding anniversary (I don't even remember what happened) then it was my birthday, then it was Christmas and Jeff was sick and we all got stuck at home.

I know that I have been a very bad blogger. And I wish to write more often this year.

I feel blessed for 2009 yet I also feel that there are things that I wished we had done. Things I wished were settled and that we don't have to carry on for this year. Things just didn't turn out the way I thought it'll be. Looking back at my journal last year, I saw that I have written so many goals that I thought will come easy. Ok, I lied I knew it won't be easy but seeing that most of them didn't materialize, makes me feel really disappointed .. ok, I think the word must be frustrated.

For 2010, I'm doing it again. I'm writing down goals, I'm making them a reality each day ... I don't know if I'm on the right track but I just want to make it to the finish line feeling satisfied about myself. I don't know when was the last time I felt this.

I hope this year ...

... I can scrap more often. I feel so left out. I feel that I'm less creative. I wanted to sit, relax and just make layouts and feel good about it. I wanted to scrap for my family more often than for other people.

... we can finally plan for baby #2. I'm not at all getting younger. When I had Ethan, I wanted baby #2 maybe 2 to 3 years after him. But there were so many other things we needed to consider before we can say we are ready for baby#2 and so it just came out as a surprise that Ethan has just turned 5 last year!

... we can buy our dream house. I know that moving to a house may take awhile, I just want us to make a downpayment. It'll be a good start. I think.

... we can take a real family vacation. A vacation without cellphones, without any business calls, without anything on our minds but to rest and relax.

I have so many other personal goals, hopes and wishes for this year but I'd keep them to myself for now.

Thanks to all those who still reads my blog or those who drops by and still leaves messages even though it takes a lot of time before I can even publish it. Thanks to all those who still believes in my talent. If only you know how much I miss scrapbooking and my scrapping friends.

I'll be posting 2 layouts I made last year in a moment.