I'm still okay ... maybe

I know this is a photography and scrapbook blog - a place where Jeff and I share our layouts and photos. But lately it has become a place for me to vent out too. I know I have friends who visit this blog to see how I do. And this is my way to let them know ... I am still alive, maybe not okay but surviving.

I'm going through one of the most difficult phases in my life. I feel like I wanted to die for several days, wake up again and everything will just return to how things used to be. I've been here several times before and it's not that simple to go through this again .. simply not something I anticipated!

I'm really in pain and I can only blame myself for everything. Now I realized that not all of my decisions are sound after all. I made a mistake and if only I could turn back time, I will.

I'm sorry I cannot divulge some info. I wish I could but there are some sensitive issues concerning some people that I cannot just say what's taking place. All I ask of you is to pray for me and my family. I have not been myself lately and I know that my family needs me ... the usual me, not the absent minded wife and mom ... not the sulking one. I want my self back. When? I have no idea ...

Thanks for reading this. I really appreciate it.

-Pia

I'll Catch You ...

Another quickie layout - made this in an hour and a half. This new line from Cosmo Cricket really got me happy! I love the boldness of the colors - very playful and very me hahaha! I'm so glad Ria suggested we use these papers (watch out for the Scrapbytes April issue to know what I'm talking about).

This photo was taken last March 22 at Canyon Woods - again, thanks to our dear friend, Ria for inviting us over to her mom's place. You could just imagine how much photos we "all" had just for that day. Imagine all of us carrying our SLRs while our kids had fun playing. Maybe people thought we're a bunch of nuts for carrying big cameras and taking as much photo as we can hehehe! Para kaming paparazzi : D

I made two more layouts since last week - a total of 4 for this month. I also finished my projects for Working Mom magazine, it'll be out for the June issue! I'm feeling a little better now that I can finally scrap even for awhile lang.

Title: I'll Catch You if You Fall
Materials used: Cosmo Cricket Gett Happy papers, Hey Sugar journaling card and die cuts, Bazzill cs, American Crafts thickers, buttons, ribbons, Faber Castell pencil colors and Zig pen
Hidden Journaling: Ethan, know that I will always be here for you at the verge of every stumble. I love you so much! - Mommy

Entry to Lasting Impression's Cosmo Cricket Challenge
Photography by Jeff Lopez

Thanks for looking!

-Pia

Finally ... a layout!

For those who have been wondering what's keeping me busy lately, wonder no more coz I'm back LOL! Kidding aside, I went back to work for almost a month already. I don't know if working again is something I wanted to do for long ... I miss everything especially Ethan!

Eto ang nagagawa ng desperadang maka-scrap! I finished this layout this evening in an hour and so. I feel I needed to scrap or else I might get insane! I don't know if I have forgotten how to scrap coz for this month, I think I only made three layouts! Such a shame!

Much as I wanted to share with you more stories about how I am at the moment, talagang ubos na powers ko hehehe! I hope to be able to adjust fully so I can go back to my normal life - I hope to be home earlier than the usual, I hope to cook again for my family (I still do pag kaya ko pa), I wish to be able to spend more time with my family and friends again and yes I wish to scrap more often too - pantanggal ng stress.

Thanks!

-Pia